Don't Ask

 If you aren't willing to hear the answer,  don't ask.  If you don't want to get a possibly negative response,  don't ask.  Seemingly innocuous questions aren't always so innocuous.   Today I was asked a simple question that most people ask of college students.  I was honest.   And blunt.  It hit a sore spot for me, touching on the most painful part of my life in Provo. And that was it.  They tiene to someone else and asked the same question.  And under the circumstances what could he do but give a positive answer?  Nothing. 

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