Exploring Inside the Periphery

I find myself at loose ends at the moment.  Add I contemplate the next two months of my life,  even up to the next three years,  I can't help wondering what life will bring.  I've been working almost constantly the last two days trying to complete all the necessary paperwork to enroll in and pay for graduate school.  I wish i had someone from whom I could learn what I'm getting into.  I've learned this week that my semester will be almost entirely project based.  Two tests in the entire semester. And then at the end of my housing contract, what will I do until contracts open again? They don't seem to overlap.  And then I think longingly of a small home plan I fell in love with.  A small kitchen and living room. A bedroom and bathroom just for me (provided I'm still single) and it sounds wonderful! I might have picked out potential colors and furniture ideas and...  and... Yes, I am quite eager for my own place.  Not just an apartmen...

I've been thinking I might want to write a book. With this title.  I'm 31. I've been able to date since I was 16. And I've had three boyfriends. Two were under a month and the third was seven months.  Hence, perpetually single.  What I've come to realize is that as you age,  your peers expect  you to have a certain  amount of experience and knowledge.  I don't mean sexually. There is just a confidence that comes from knowing how to communicate with another person and become intimate with them. Communication is essential! And those skills are built up over the years. You don't necessarily want to be the woman who wants to be kissed by the guy and blurts out asking why he did that.  Very embarrassing.  First off,  be a kid! Don't try to rush growing up! Even at 16 and 17, maybe even 18, use the opportunity to you with friends and socialize! Build up your communication skills!  Get to know lots of people!   Date for fun! I ma...

Okay,  so I am a little amused by the title of the blog.  I have a generic disease that I triggered 7 years ago that blurs my central vision - so I only see through my peripheral vision.  Worth a chuckle to me!